Sometimes, when a chapter in a book ends and a new one begins, there is an empty space between them. A piece of white sheet. I’m stuck in this space. The chapter "St. Petersburg" is over, the chapter "New Life" is ahead, which still does not want to begin. I "zeroed out", went through all the monopoly cells and returned to the starting position. I’m back in my hometown. And it seems that everything is not so terrible: a job has been found, relatives are nearby, paintings are being painted. But there is no happiness. Thoughts creep in treacherously "Is the move worth it?" Or is it better to feel happiness in a cage than to get bogged down in a "swamp" on the outside?